Chosen Grace

So before I begin I’d just like to apologize for this blog post taking so long! I had been meaning to write this, but a lot has prevented me from doing that. But, I have decided that a blog post every two weeks. I’ll try to have a new one out every Wednesday or Sunday- whichever my schedule allows. Anyway, please enjoy this blog post. The title is simple, but the content is complex. Oh yeah– comment, like, enjoy!!!

Currently in my Christian walk, God is growing me. And in the process of growth, God has to change some things about me.

Now, I have always known that God changes people. But He does it so slick, that I did not even see it coming my way, until one day these words slipped from my mouth:

“Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.” —Psalm 51:10

Now, I was amazed at myself. As a person who is not to fond of change naturally, I was really wondering what these words meant. I found myself saying this prayer more and more. Not long after that God led me here:

“Unless the Lord builds the house, those who build it labor in vain.” – Psalm 127:1

And there it was. The psalmist, Solomon, was the wisest man to ever live. And his words in Psalm 127 were indeed wise. He knew that if God does not build it, then the work is in vain. And aren’t we God’s temple? We, as God’s temple, are his building. And as his building he has to build us. 

You see God can not grow us if He does not change us. And we all need to be changed. Shoot, I know I do. I am not ashamed to admit I need changing

I now realize that unless God builds me Himself, then I am being built in vain. And I do not want that. I want all the blessings that God has promised me before the creations of the world. I want to be made whole in Jesus the Christ.

My growth process is no where near completed. And I’m ok and happy with that. God has conditioned me to be patient with the process (that’s a different blog post for a different day). And that is also how I know God is changing and growing me, because before I would fight and argue at His attempts at changing me, often wondering why and being very, very impatient.

But not now. My heart is so happy and so fixed on change and growth that I’m happy in the process. I’ve never in my Christian walk been so open and ready for change.  I am ready for whatever it is He has for me. I’m expectant for His will to manifest itself.

One last thing before I go: Change is hard. Yep, it is. To be honest with y’all, God has shown me exactly what He wants for me to change in this moment- and I’ve accepted that. But as Paul said in Romans 7- I do not do want I want but the exact opposite. Meaning, I try to do what God has told me, but I fail miserably. And it sucks.

But God sees that. He knows that I am not perfect. He knows I’m trying. As long as I am trying, He’s willing to work with me–and for me.

So yeah, change is needed. Change is hard. But I say to anyone reading this: let God change you, and you’ll be very happy. Happier than you have ever been. I know because I am a living testimony.

As stated before, my change process is no where near completed. And I’m ok with that. But in the meantime I’ll be waiting and expecting, all while continuing to say change me, oh God. 

With Love,

Malaysia.