Chosen Grace

Hey y’all out there! Before I begin, I just want to say thank you to all of my followers, supporters, and everyone who has even took the time out to read this blog. You don’t know how much I appreciate that. From the bottom of my heart, I love you- all of you. Blessings to all. 

Let go and let God. Many people have heard this phrase one way or another. It’s so common that we say it without really thinking about it. And I was one of those people– until recently.

A situation went down a month ago. And when that situation went down, I did everything I knew how. I prayed and I “released” that situation unto God. Weeks passed and I was fine. I was smiling and moving past what had happened.

Then, the other day- something happened.  When I saw this particular person involved with this particular situation,I broke down and cried like a baby. So, as retreated somewhere by myself, wiping away tears that kept flowing, I asked God: Lord, what are you trying to say? And His answer was this:

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” –Matthew 11:28, NIV

You see, I was weary. I was burdened. God knew that, and I did too. But, me being human, I pretended not to be affected by what had happened. I hid my emotions and suppressed my feelings so good that I tricked myself into believing that I had moved on. 

Along with that, God reminded me of some things. He reminded me that over the course of a month, I thought about the situation a lot- probably without even realizing it. Thinking about it only made me confused. Confused as to why it happened and confused as to what to do about it.

Confusion caused me to get bitter and mean about the situation. And that bitterness spread. It spread so quick, I was caught off guard by it.

FYI- Confusion is one of the enemy’s biggest tactics, but I’ll dig deeper into that in another blog post. 

God told me and that I had not made peace with the situation.  More importantly, I had not surrendered it totally surrendered it to God. 

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” –Matthew 11:28, NIV

I retyped this verse because I want y’all to understand that when you do not come to God and surrender something to Him- it will drive you up the wall crazy. You could still be stressed over whatever and sad, while the people, person, or thing can be walking around happy and stress free.

Give it to God. Truly, give it to God. That’s what I did. I poured my heart out to Him and then released it unto Him. And when I tell y’all that I am truly happy- I mean it.

Now, the enemy is still trying his best to allow that situation get under my skin. But every time I think about it- I just say a small prayer of thanks to God. Thanking Him that I can see the good in what happened.

I will admit, I’m not fully over the situation like I want to be. And that’s alright with me. God is working with me day by day. I do not see that situation as a roadblock- but as a  blessing. It was a small chapter in my life- not the whole story.

I am unburdened. I am not weary. I have rest. Thanks be to God, for His peace.

I say to all y’all out there- don’t stress over what’s not meant to be stressed over. Don’t be worried about things you can’t control. Because God’s got the final say. And He knows the big picture.

Before I go, I want to share this with y’all. After I cried, I grabbed my phone because I knew that I needed God and my Bible was not with me. So, I went to my pictures because I screen shot inspirational posts. And I scrolled up and down looking for one, I came across this one from 2016: 

I shared that quote to say this: I may not ever fully understand that situation nor do I desire to anymore. I am trusting in God, and allowing Him to give me beauty for my ashes. 

I am letting go, and letting God. 

With love,

Malaysia.