Chosen Grace

Hey lovely people out there. It’s been a while since I’ve been writing, but so much as happened in my life. To be honest with you, I’ve just gotten through a serious storm and I’m slowly repairing myself. But, read on. 

I doubted God.

I doubted His being. His existence. I doubted Him.

I know, you’re probably wondering how and why, but I did. And its easier than you may think.

See, it started when I began school. I was excited and ready to show everyone the new me. The cool Christian kid who loves God. I was excited, but my adversary (Satan) was not.

As I scrolled through a book, I felt the change. It was like a shift in the atmosphere. A total change in my relationship had occurred with God. From that point on, I was not the strong and confident girl in Christ I had once been. And boy, the rain was just starting.

I didn’t pay it any mind at first. But the thoughts started rolling in. The thunder was everywhere. All I was hearing was contrary to the Word of God. Every way I turned, I could’t seem to find the light.

And what I was seeing did not make it any better. The lightning was really scaring me and I was sinking in the rain day by day.

And this went on for a month.  In that month I went through the motions.

Occasionally I was in the eye of a storm, God did not leave me hanging.He reminded me of his promises. But it was hard nonetheless.

And then, just this past Sunday, God reminded me of how sovereign He was through His word in Isaiah 40: 21-31. He told me to wait, and that this storm I was in was indeed passing. All I had to do was trust Him.

So far I’ve been doing good, even though its only been a day. I really have felt his nearness. The storm was finally over. The Light was here, and darkness can and will not come over it.

I’ve suffered a major set back in my walk. But it’s ok. I’m learning everything again and it’s kind of cool. I’m not gonna rush my growth because I know that real change takes time, and I’m ready for the lasting effects.

To end, just stay afloat. God will always come through. The Light will always shine and prevail.

With love,

Malaysia.