Chosen Grace

Foreword from the author: I contemplated on writing this post, because this is a very personal and touchy subject for me. I wanted to cry while I was writing it.  But I wrote it because I know there’s someone out there who struggles with the same thing as me. But without further introduction, ENJOY!

Most people in today’s society thrive off of social media, and having a squad. They look for likes and acceptance from everybody but themselves.

But not me. I’m almost always by myself. I like to call it a one woman praise team.

Now, don’t get me wrong, I talk to people. And I have one close friend. But I’m the one person that’s always there, but never heard. And it hurts sometimes. Because it seems as though everyone has somebody. Whether a boo thang or some BFF’s….everyone has someone.

But then there’s me. All I got is me myself and I. My mama calls me a social butterfly, which is true, but I’d love to have someone to communicate with sometimes. Communicate real deeply with. I stated before that I have one close friend and I’m grateful for her…but she’s not always there, and we don’t talk all the time.

I hate not having someone sometimes, because it truly does hurt. So the little things that people do, really do go a long way for me. Just a simple hey can make my day. Really, it does.

And sometimes when I’m down in the dumps over it, my Help comes in and whispers, “Malaysia, you know that I’m right here…..right here for you.” or “Malaysia, let me comfort you.” 

And He indeed does. He’s always my help and my comforter. God is always with me, even when I don’t feel Him, I know he’s there. 

So being alone isn’t all bad. When I’m alone I hear His voice more clearly and He knows that I need His guidance. 

I haven’t figured out why God has allowed me to become a one woman praise team, but it’s ok. I know that there’s something  big coming. 

For all those like me, just keep hoping and trusting in God. He’s a friend when your friendless. He won’t fail you. 

With love, 

Malaysia